can i cry because of u...

my dear blog..
i'm such in pain, heart broken..why? bcoz of a friend that I love so much.
I put so much effort, help her..being so kind...when something happen make me hurt, pretend it was not..
I listen well to her when She had problem, I try to make her laugh hopefully can reduce her stress..
Can you do the same thing to me? only ask one thing help me in my study? will u?
If u can't listen to me as well as how I listen to u, If u can't sacrifice yourself just like how I sacrifice my time for u, will u do just one thing for me by helping me in study?...
I don't want  u to repay back my kindness, everything I do sincerely just for u.. but I'm just manusia biasa, not perfect at all, need help, need love from someone tittled 'friend'.
a moment ago, u said to me, when I had problem, she can lend me her shoulder... I wonder nowadays, if she change to selfish one since life is going to be busy..I wish she'll not be that..No..she is not selfish..

I don't know what people say to me about this type of small thing, I know at this moment I shouldn't think so much about it..I'm not perfect..still have emotion, I'm not easily feeling sad or cry because of someone.. only certain people can make me feel this way..

my best friend(exroomate during matrix) said to me" u shouldn't be sooo kind, can be kind tp b'pada2"
I reply " I try to control but sddenly I'm too kind"..she said that's the problem..
I don't know how she can understand me very well in a short moment we were together..
 Thanks my friends, my blog...Aja! Aja! Fighting!..hope tomorrow will be better than today..